grace and dignity (self-maintenance)
Lev Mamuya
i am up to a rich
work without ghosts—
i absolutely cannot trust
my follicles’ growth-in
straight. i squint by
the mirror, i grind
my teeth, they clack wise at
me, let me know.
i am well versed in how
water goes, whenever
i may see a faucet. the sink
cracks light and says it’s
the mirror. the sink and
i, really, are far nobler—we know
only the thrill of making
marks on the wall. lines,
and the taking of them. the work of
growing in—the sink
laughs—focal lines dance
in the creases, the all-over, i
give it up. it warms me, and
tastes sweet. fever, sweet—
the light is harsh,
linear. i have been standing
here a long time. it is
looking at myself grown
down sharp, this light.
it cuts narrow to me,
bound to swell towards some
eruption. my space to grow
lines straight seems now
a crack of the light. just.
i believed i was arrogant. i cannot
follow. i lay my eyes down
the counter, flat.